Trust
15 Oct 2009 5 Comments
in Uncategorized Tags: feeling, wondering
Have you ever trusted someone?
You know.. when there’s no reason to be anyone else, but yourself. When you’re free to say exactly how you feel, exactly what you feel, share what’s on your mind, things you dont tell anyone, or things that you want to tell everyone…without being afraid of sounding stupid, childish, angry.., without being afraid to be judged, to be ignored, to be scared of, to be laughed at. Because you know the other person knows a bigger picture of who you are, and every new pretty or not -piece of you would make a picture even more complete. And you don’t want to pretend. You dont want to waste any minute faking, you just want to be yourself. As transparent as you are. Not hiding any side of you, not adjusting, not missing any piece of who you are. For me trust is not about trusting your secrets and know they’ll be safe. For me TRUST is trusting someone your true self. Without even doubting that you’ll be safe.
Have you ever trusted yourself everyone you meet? - Being yourself every single moment of your life?
There’s a long way to go. And the start is in small but very important steps. Finding that one or few people that you truly trust. See if you can do it. See how it feels. – How to find them? By opening yourself to people. By trying, trusting, and not getting disappointed if it doesnt work. Because the feeling is definitely worth it.. it kinda gives you HOPE.
“Ultimately, I’m looking for someone I can talk to about anything and everything, who I don’t have to filter myself around, someone I can cry in front of or tell my biggest fears or most embarrassing secrets, someone who I know isn’t judging me, and who, in return, will open up to me. There’s plenty that goes on in my head that I don’t share with even my closest friends; as revealing as I may be about my sex life, I’m actually fairly private about quite a bit. It’s rare to find someone I can truly let go with, but that’s what I want in the future: someone who lets me be me”
